Over the past few days I've felt a sense of unease. My subconscious is aware of it also -- I've been having strange dreams that left me waking up in a bad mood. As I tried to recognize the problem I thought about many matters, and after 2-3 days I've come to some replies.
Walk away from the crutches, even if its your best friend
First, I am fortunate enough to have a good companion in San Diego. But, it is important to know when you have to walk your path. Quite often, we lean on the shoulders of others, and in the process, neglect to learn that which we ought to learn to do ourselves. For instance, I'm constantly hanging out with himand we play video games. This is excellent fun, but recently after our LA trip I have felt a feeling of waste after enjoying matches. So I flashed my Heroes of the Storm bnet accounts and now I have far more spare time in my hands. So the lesson is, learn when you have to develop your own strength, and also have the courage to walk away from the very best friend. He/she will understand, that you need time to yourself to develop inner strength.
I have also learned that my daytime pick up abilities are much better, and that I tend to do better on my own. Sometimes, you need to go out there and watch the world for yourself, rather than resenting others for"holding you back", when in actuality, you are the one that's doing it!
Seeing the silver lining in everything
For a child, I used to think that if I am learning the piano in the afternoon, all of the other children are out there playing at the golden sunset! No! I felt a feeling of loss! Yet, now, I am grateful on some nights when I can just be at work and work to my heart content. Only me and my job. Sometimes I may feel like that is lonely and perhaps it is, but that is how it is for today, and I have learned to see it as a boon, I get to hangout with my friends once I need to, and have my own time without being stressed by work or personal obligations.
Being cool with no"trying"
I've leverage the ability to be present thanks to Ekhart Tolle and I've noticed that when I'm relaxed and unstressed, I have a open vibe. People talk to me. "What is that you're buying?" I believe that on weekdays, because many people are worried, an unstressed, open energy contrasts nicely compared to all of the pent up energy that people see everyday. I'm lucky enough to have financial freedom at this stage in my life, and that I shall continue to station a cool, open vibe, even though I am working hard on the job.
Presence, and inner love When we judge other people, in some ways we are also coping with our own demons. Your presence of light is enough -- which alone could sustain you and add love to the world. Occasionally our ego gets in the way, and we out of the spark and magnificent of what's there to begin with.
Strive for the finest, judgement free of others
I used to judge others or"hate on them" when they are useless to my goals. I realized this is the incorrect way to examine the world. Everyone is in their journey. In many ways, my negativity towards them was actually at myself jak zagadać do dziewczyny smsem -- at my own inability to make things function. I must have sought out help earlier, or recognized that I had to meet new folks, rather than resenting my friends. You can't always change someone, however you could always adore them.
It is okay to be an asshole, sometimes our mistakes teach us how to arrive at the right solution
In order for me to "find peace".
Or reach a stage of acceptance, I needed to undergo pain. The pain makes it possible to get to a point (hopefully) of throwing off the baggage of the self.
Intimate relationships, enjoy all the life has to offer you. Drink from the fountain
While I used to select the hottest girls, I want the deepest connections in all areas of my life. Am I drawn to beautiful women? Absolutely. However, my fascination today is more than only a physical one. I find myself losing charm for shallow beauty, and much more in tune with internal beauty.
I am still drawn sexually to superficial beauty, but in terms of my relationships as well as an-ongoing kind of situation, I see myself valuing a gorgeous girl who has great inner qualities as well.