Over the past few days I have felt a sense of unease. My subconscious is aware of it also -- I've been having weird dreams that left me waking up in a poor mood. As I attempted to recognize the problem I thought about several matters, and after 2-3 days I've come to some answers.
Walk away from your crutches, even if its your Very Best buddy
I am fortunate enough to have a good companion in San Diego. However, it is important to know when you must walk your path. Quite often, we lean on the shoulders of others, and in the process, neglect to learn that which we should learn to do ourselves. By way of instance, I'm constantly hanging out with him, and we play video games. This is great fun, but recently after our LA trip I have felt a feeling of waste after enjoying games. I uninstalled my Heroes of the Storm bnet account and now I have far more free time on my hands. So the lesson is, find out when you need to come up with your own strength, and also have the guts to walk away from your very best friend. He/she will know, that you need time to yourself to develop inner strength.
I have also discovered that my daytime pick up skills are better, and that I have a tendency to do much better in my. From time to time, you need to go out there and watch the world on your own, instead of resenting others for"holding you back", when in actuality, you are the one which's doing it!
Seeing the silver lining in everything
For a child, I used to believe that if I'm learning the piano at the afternoon, all the other children are out there playing at the golden sunset! No! I felt a feeling of loss! Yet, nowadays, I'm grateful on some nights when I can just be at work and function to my heart content. No family, no friends bugging me, nothing. Just me and my work. Sometimes I may feel like this is lonely and it is, but that is how it's for today, and I've learned to view it as a blessing, I get to hangout with my friends when I want to, and possess my own time without being stressed by work or personal duties.
Being cool without"trying"
I've leverage the capability to be present thanks to Ekhart Tolle and I've noticed that when I am relaxed and unstressedI have an open vibe. People talk to me personally. "What is that you are purchasing?" "Hey this elevator is slow huh?" I believe that on weekdays, because so many individuals are worried, an unstressed, open energy translates well in contrast to all of the pent up energy that people see everyday. I am lucky enough to have financial freedom at this point in my entire life, and I shall continue to station a chill, open vibe, even though I'm working hard at work.
Being"chill" also means non-judgement. When we judge others, in certain ways we're also dealing with our own demons. This is maybe one of the universal truths of all religions (that has been killed off by religious dogma). Your own presence of light is enough -- which alone can sustain you and put in love to the entire world. Occasionally our self gets in the way, and blinds us out of the spark and magnificent of what is there to start with.
Strive for the finest, judgement free of others I realized this is the wrong way to examine the entire world. Everybody is on their own journey. In a lot of ways, my negativity towards them was actually at myself at my inability to make things function. I should have sought out aid earlier, or recognized that I needed to meet new people, rather than resenting my pals. You can't always change somebody, however you could always adore them.
It's ok to be an asshole, occasionally our mistakes instruct us how to arrive at the right solution
In order for me to "find peace".
Or reach a stage of acceptance, I had to undergo pain. The pain makes it possible to reach a point (ideally ) of throwing away the baggage of the ego.
Intimate relationships, savor all the life has to offer.
While I used to select the hottest girls, I want the deepest relationships in all areas of my own life. Am I still drawn to beautiful women? Absolutely. However, my fascination today is more than only a physical one. I find myself losing attraction for superficial beauty, and more in tune with internal beauty.
I am still attracted sexually to shallow beauty, but in terms of my connections as well as an-ongoing type of scenario, I find jak zagadać do dziewczyny w klubie myself valuing a beautiful girl with great inner qualities too.